A shopping adventure, part I

The last few days has been a time of discovery for me! What fun it is.

I was reading Sissy Dolly Anne's article on When a sissy should be allowed cum and was inspired by the ideas! So when I was out shopping today I bought all kinds of fun stuff. I wanted to try out different tampons to my usual to see if they'd be any easier to insert (for reference, I use plain old tampax with applicators - don't try the tampax compak, the applicators are too short to make it all the way in without chaffing (or do, if that's your thing)), and while I was there I saw Kotex Nighttime Maxi Pads and I just had to have them.

When I was shopping I was very naughty and had a key with me so I could get copies cut. At one point I opened the Kotex and touched them. They felt like heaven. They were smooth, soft and thick. They felt amazing, so I fumbled for the key and took off my device. Like Dolly Anne suggested, I smeared a heavy E45 cream all over them and walked around with it. Nobody else knew what was between my legs that day.

I don't have much power left on my sissy little laptop to write this, but I've started playing with the Points of Intrigue. I use the two biggest ones and sleep in them. It's a really fun dilemma, because when my clit gets aroused, it pushes against the points, making me more horny, hurting me even more. The most fun part is when I wake up in the middle of the night, with my clit doing battle. It's all I can do not to scream. I know my keys are far away, and I just can't do anything but see how it goes. I can't make myself cum yet by nipple play like Dolly Anne can, but I'm getting there. So here's to another interesting night!

The Beginning

I bought a Curve (a chastity device) a few days back, and rushed to put it on.

It took a little while to figure out how to get it to fit right, but now that I can, I wear it as often as I can.

The Curve is so big that it doesn't fit so well under my clothes, and sometimes I wonder if people might notice it under my clothes, and if it will get me into trouble, but I secretly wonder what would happen if I was found out. Sometimes I fantasize about being found and what punishment would happen. Would they bend me over, pounding my ass mercilessly? Would they fucking me all ways that they could, leaving me so turned on but unable to help myself?

When I bought it, I went on a real spree and bought as much material as I could to frustrate me, to make me want to cum so hard but not be able to. I bought some magazines, and a dvd of trannies sucking tranny-cock. It all makes me want to cum so hard that I can barely stand it, and want to find any way possible to find release? That's the point right? Good girls shouldn't cum, unless they're let. I even bought a butt-plug and some tampons just to see if they could help me. It makes me want to be fucked in the ass so bad that it hurts.

That's the big problem right now. I want to cum so badly, but there's nobody who holds the Key, so I'm stuck.

What I really want in a KeyHolder is someone who can hold me their will. I want someone to control when I can and cannot cum, and I want them to do it in the most physical way. I want someone to choose how I wear my belt, and to choose when I take it off, and what I do when it's off.

I want to be in a state where I'll do anything just so the KeyHolder will take off the cage, and let me cum. I'll do anything, just so I can cum again. I'll be a slave just so that I can feel that sweet sweet release.

So that's me. If you're in Dublin, and think you want to be my KeyHolder, just let me know.